Twig's Adventures

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2012-01-13T17:00:00.000-07:00

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Hey Followers Follow ME!

2011-03-20T13:28:00.002-06:00

Hi.

So I know I have been neglecting this blog... and I will continue to do so! Maybe sometime I will find something interesting to write here. In the meantime to satisfy your curosities about me please check out my new project HERE and please follow me there. I would love your readership and there is a guaranteed regular blog post twice a week. In fact I am working on 1.3 now! Time for you to catch up!

Love,

Twig

Twig's Blossoming

2011-03-12T18:38:00.002-07:00

Long time no see friends. Hopefully you haven't missed me to terribly I have missed you. I have been working on a project that I think all of you will enjoy. Project Blossom. I have a new blog that I will be posting on regularly on Mondays and Thursdays. This blog will continue to be my rare personal updates.

On 'Project: Twig's Blossoming' I will posting short stories about my past. From the beginning of my (interesting) memories, Through the dark and secretive to the light and excited. I will take you through the journey of my life until present day. I will be posting them in linear order twice a week. With a picture I have taken on the present day and using a word of the day. I would love it if you all followed me there! Please go now! Become a fan. Put it into your RSS feed and comment on the posts! I can't wait to see you there to take this scary, exciting journey with me.

Love,

Twig

Crash

2011-03-12T12:58:00.000-07:00

"You brush past people, people bump into you, [Yet] nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something." - Crash (Movie, 2004)

Vlogger???

2011-01-18T11:57:00.002-07:00

I haven't been keeping up with my blog very well. haha. The revolution is happening! I just need to revise a few things. I am working on this great post, but have not been feeling very writerly lately. So I recorded this last night. It's kind of pointless :P Not terrible for a first vlog! haha.

Twig.

A Personal Revolution

2010-12-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

Ah... New Years is this week and with it the usual pressure to become something better in the upcoming year. So it is a time to come up with a list of New Years Resolutions. I don't really like the idea of 'New Years Resolutions' the idea of people waiting until New Years to set goals and try to better themselves disgust me. You should be doing that all year around.

Yet here we are, four days from the New Year and I get all excited with the prospects of a new future, and form a list. I have called them multiple things to avoid the NYR following: Spring goals or My Big, Fun, Scary List.

This year I think I will call it My Personal Revolution List. There will be a list to your left, and also a tab at the top where you can see my progress on this list. I will of course be posting here on the progress.

In the previous years I have come up with large lists, that are eventually forgotten and never accomplished. Yet I was never disappointed about it because it's not about the list it is about the progress. Hence the name of this years list. However this year I have a good, obtainable and measurable list. Plus faithful friends and readers to keep me in line.

So here is the early version of the list, it will probably be fixed and changed in the upcoming month or so.

Twig's Personal Revolution

-Donate around 10% of my personal income to charity. About $100 a month
-Budget and record finances
-Save a minimum of $400 a month
-By June have $5,000 in savings
-Start creating a weekly menu and only go to the store once a week
-Purchase the Sunday paper and clip coupons
-Make old T-shirts into reusable bags and eliminate plastic bags by February
-Read at least one educational book and one entertaining book once a month
-Read Pedagogy of the Oppressed by June
-Wherever I am, begin school in the Fall
-Meditate every night
-Volunteer at least once a month
-Start participating in QYS
-Practice Spanish a minimum of three times a week (Rosetta Stone)
-Blog or write in my journal at least twice a week.
-Apply for The Stranger before Jan. 15th
-Participate in yoga classes one to twice a week
-Run/Bike two to three times a week (to work?)
-By the fall find a job that I like making a minimum of $10/hr
-Organize The SoapBus Project
-Logo for SoapBus Project
-SBP Website
-Form initial committee, all by the end of January
-Run at least two success projects by the end of February

To maintain these goals I have created monthly and weekly checklist. I would love to hear about all of your goals!

Love you all!

Twig

Merry Holidays!

2010-12-17T21:51:00.003-07:00

Merry Holidays!

I ask only for one thing this Xmas Season (from all my Christan and consumerist Readers)! Please if you are reading this: Comment! I would love to hear from you, my sixteen followers! I receive many hits a day and only two people comment. It would be much appreciated. ROLL CALL BELOW! :D

I would like to give a special shout out to Corey Wilkey and Lexa Be. My two very devout blog readers. They both have great blogs and always have great things to comment. I love you guys. This is for you!

As a side note... another single holiday season *sigh*

Loves,

Twig

SLC Out!

2010-12-17T21:36:00.004-07:00

Salt Lake was my new point of direction. I had a lot of things to be excited for. Living with another of my best friends, being close to my family, having my OWN place, being a part of activism and attending school.

Yet it was coming up very fast and then Sala decided it would be a better choice for her to move to St. George. This destroyed my plans and I was a little bummed at first. Just deciding that I would move some time at the beginning of 2011.

Now, I am slightly relieved that I didn't. It was too early. I am not quite ready. So for now I am staying in Seattle. I am applying for an internship with The Stranger (A super cool liberal newspaper) and well... I have other good things going for me too.

Love,

Logan

Spark

2010-12-17T09:47:00.008-07:00

I got a second date!

I keep thinking of ideas for post on this blog. Things I want to share with you guys, So I have a growing list. Any only now have I decided to sit down in my PJs, with a little music and eggnog to start on my list. I am getting behind. *enter blog post*

My super brilliant amazing roommate, Natalie came home the other day (a couple weeks ago now ;) and she was really excited to talk to me as soon as she had walked through door. She told me how she was on the bus and she saw this guy. She told me he was so cute. She said, "Regardless of his orientation, I just thought you guys would look great together!". I laughed and blushed. I was a little embarrassed. I mean even though I am super out of the closet and everyone that knows me knows I am gay... I am a closet case! Natalie telling me this meant a lot to me. Like my mom telling her coworkers about my "gay work" haha. This is a level of Acceptance beyond anything I have experienced. Even I have a problem seeing same-sex couples together. Honestly sometimes it feels awkward. For Nat to see someone and think of me, it is really cool.

I have now been on three dates in Seattle, they were all really nice and it was fun to go out and do things not related to work or the small group of people I know, but the first two weren't anything special.

And now after a date on Wednesday I sit here, flutter, thinking about the date and waiting until I decide it's a good time to call him again.

I had talked with him on one of the many gay social networking sites I am on, I usually don't pay much attention to these sites, but he was nice enough and really smart, and good looking. So we eventually decided to meet for coffee. Things went so well we decided we didn't want to end with the last drop of coffee so we went to his place. The rest of the night we just sat and talked (and maybe a little cuddling and kissing ;) We talked until 2am! He put a movie on (Inglorious Bastards, good choice) but we didn't pay much attention to it, just talked about a lot of different things. It was great.

So I had told Nat and Robert that I was going to hang out with a work friend. I instantly felt dumb. I am really honest about everything but for some reason I compulsively lie about little things that don't matter. I don't know why. So I came home and told Natalie about my date, and she laughed at the lie bit. Then I started asking them about how I pursue this. I haven't really ever dated! I don't know what to do. I don't want to play the game, but at the same time I don't want to mess up! What do I do? So it's been a day and I am going to wait until it is a little latter in the day and I am going to call him.

I feel like it might be to early to share this, but I haven't felt this way since... well you know. Well either way, great or bad, you will hear about "Spark". BAH I am so fluttery right now I disgust myself. haha.

I would like to take this time to make a public service announcement.

GO GET TESTED

Seriously *serious face here* It is important. It is only a quick pin prick in the finger and a few minutes and its done! Usually free. It can save yours and others life. After being terribly sick, I was a little afraid about the symptoms that I had. So I went to a clinic and paid $40 to get tested for every STD imaginable. It was a great experience and that $40 could have saved my life if I had anything. Get it done, every three months, get your friends, family, strangers to do it. Thank You.

Love,

Twig

Coming Soon:
SLC Out!
Happy Holidays

It's all clear now ;)

2010-12-07T11:15:00.009-07:00

Dear Pro-Gay US Citizens,

I really do appreciate your attempts to provide the freedom to marry whom I choose, however, I must ask you to stop. As good as your intentions may be, the recent movements have us at the brink of marriage equality, and this stresses me out greatly. As a single gay male, I don't have much to worry about, yet I worry about my future once Proposition 8 gets repealed and marriage is liberated from it's traditional chains.
In the past, it has been fairly easy for me to skirt commitment. Having dated a man for a good amount of time, he eventually feels the need to take the next step. I just say "Baby, I care about you, but or society doesn't want us to take that step yet" and the whole conversation blows over.
If Gay marriage were to become legal what would my excuse be for not making commitment! I could no longer be the bachelor I am, I would have to settle down. A terrible thing I have seen happen to many heterosexual men and women. It would ruin my life.
So please, well intentioned citizen, stop. Stop the fight. I am not ready for commitment!

Sincerely,

Logan

I wrote this as a joke during the Judge Walker's Decision, however on a more serious note... I really am afraid of what will happen if Prop 8 gets repealed so this early and Gay Marriage becomes legal. What would happen to the movement. Marriage is important, yet the Queer movement is so much more. From youth and their parents, bullying, societies view on gender and sexuality, anti-discrimination laws... the list goes on. There is so much more that needs to be done and I am afraid once marriage becomes legal, many people will give up the fight. While people will still suffer. Those who do continue the fight could be looked down upon by Queer and Non-queer people alike with dismay. "We gave you marriage, what else do you want?" they could say. I hope this is not the case but I am still afraid. What do you think my readers? Am I just crazy?

On a related subject, my roommate sent me this very interesting article about Queers and Parents of Queers who are against repealing DADT, It is a really interesting perspective and couldn't help but agree with some points. This article is on a blog that is written by a group of really great open-minded, leftist Mormons. Yes there are cool Mormons, I promise. You just have to know where to look ;)

Love,

Logan

PS. I don't know what to name this post (brainfart) ideas?
PSS. Those two articles I talked about have now turned into three. They are coming. I am just trying to spread them out and I find things I feel are more pressing to blog about. :)

Iron Jawed Angels

2010-12-06T19:43:00.002-07:00

I just finished watching this film.

It was amazing. I felt so empowered after watching it. I cried at the injustice of the things that happened. Although these women weren't saints (They failed to accept black women in their cause) they were tough and faced adversity while fighting a cause that seems impossible. With the causes I fight, I have leverage with the people in power with my power to vote. They had no power.

I wish I could quote all of the great things these suffragettes said. The overwhelming feeling I have from this film is to get things done. These women were considered radical. They did what they needed to be done. No matter what happened.

Our time as activist is here. We need to band together and get things done. I have the itch to become a part of the movement again. Our world is changing and we can help! There are so many of us that face oppression because of the "public opinion" and it is time to stand up, link arms, and brace yourself, you Iron Jawed Angels, for what is to come.

I can't wait.

Love,
Twig

PS The two post I promised are still in the works. They are coming soon! :)

This is Kind of Cool :)

2010-12-05T18:05:00.001-07:00

and this great speech.

Hunger Gay-mes

2010-11-10T17:44:00.005-07:00

Three blogs in one week! It's okay! Calm down fan girls and fan boys ;). I finally gave in and read The Hunger Games Series It took me a while to get through the third one, but I read the first two in two days.

I found the first book ridiculously interesting. Maybe it's that fact that I find Revolutions to be so romantically exciting. Even though I feel that Young Adult books need to push the envelope a bit, Collin's writing style didn't bore me. The end of the 2nd book and the beginning of the 3rd book were extremely slow. However it kept me going :) I was glad to find an actual strong female character in this book. Many in fact. Collin does a great job by naturally not consenting to gender stereotypes. I was very impressed with the epilogue. It was dark, it was heartwarming, and it was really beautiful and satisfying way to end a world. I think JK Rowling could definitely learn something from her ;).

and now a video I found on my phone :)

I miss her :(

When I was typing in a title I accidentally wrote Hunger Gay. Haha so I kept it :)

On I side note. What do you think of my new haircut? (even though this is a bad pic :) )

I need to stop watching Glee.

2010-11-09T22:51:00.014-07:00

I mean it has a great message, great music, and story... but seriously...

DIRTY THOUGHTS!

The Glee Boys Just keep getting better and better. MMMmm... men that can sing. :)

(no particular order)

Bad boy!

Great Voice. Cute Kid!

I know... I know... The teacher? haha Yes. Have you seen his moves!? And his nice clothes being ripped off!

Hottie Dancer :)

:O... MS. Beastly.... Ms. Beastly.... Ms. Beastly! That's not working! Now I am thinking of LOCKER ROOMS!

Honestly not my type, but he is a glee boy and this is a great meaningful photo.

Aw so cute an nerdy!!!

... And two photo's dedicated to my favorite addition.

OMG.

Please Glee. Stop doing this to me ;)

This is a mess.

2010-11-02T20:46:00.008-06:00

(Caution: I wrote this while I was tired and was originally just my thoughts being put down, I intended to take the fragmented thoughts and turn them into blog post... but... it's a mess. Haha :)

I have twelve followers! I don't know how many of you read, but those of you that do I am very glad that you do! I feel as though I have to get serious about this blogging thing. People are listening and I have things to say. That's the problem right now, I have to much to say and don't know how to say it. I am also weary about posting things on my blog, with these new (and uprising) readers... like my MOM, or anyone for that matter. I am self-conscious of my writing and the personal moments I share on this blog. Not to mention some of my... less golden moments.

So being self conscious of this blog I rarely post and if I do it, I censor it. I realized how pointless that is. So this is a second warning (see Disclaimer) This is my personal blog, anyone is allowed to read it. It is public. However, Twig's Adventure's will be my Veritaserum (kellie if you are reading this, that was for you), my truth serum. Things in this blog may not be pretty you may think differently, but they are a part of me. Parts I have to share. To write out, to think out.

My grandmother on my father's side died in a car crash when I was very young. I shouldn't remember her at all except a drawn picture of her on the mantel. Yet for some reason, I have memories of her in in my head. Looking at me and smiling. I always have felt very respectful towards her. She was supposed to be an amazing artist. I always wanted to be an artist. For some reason when I have been upset in the past I have always turned to drawing. While I am honestly not the best drawer, when I am in these very high's or low's I produce my best art, and feel like I have had everything worked out. It's a time to reflect. Only after learning about the concept of spirit guides did I think that maybe (when/if I decide it's real) that she is chilling on my hand helping me out through drawing. Either way it's a comforting thought. However lately I have had a lot to think about and I have drawn nothing, I am very disconnected with my spiritual side. I used to meditate constantly, now that is not my main focus and I am fine with that, but I miss parts of it.

I have never gone so far as to say "I have always know I am gay" when people say that I just get this, i-m-trying-to-prove-you-wrong feeling. I don't remember my childhood very well. The other day I had an epiphany I was thinking about childhood and movies and such and I connected something. As a child I found myself very confused. Even though I was very male (with the exception wanting to play with traditionally girly toys.) I had no problem with that. Yet when I imagined myself in movies that I had watched I had always imagined myself in the girls position. Being courted by this handsome prince, who would take care of me, love me, and kiss me. Every time I thought about this I stopped and tried to switch it to something more acceptable, and it never felt comfortable. This confused me, I knew I wanted to be a boy, but something didn't mix. Now I know. :) I didn't always know I was gay, but I have always known I was different, I have always been gay. I just wanted to imagine finding my prince charming

(I typed the words to Katy Perry's Song Here?)

Equality Utah

2010-10-03T10:29:00.005-06:00

Seattle has gotten better since my last post. It is still not what I wanted it to be. It is a beutiful city and I am comfortable here. Yet I need more.

I've been working a lot. I am Urbane's little bitch, I find myself tired of it. Just call me Skippy. Having as much free time as I do, I decided it was time to do some self teaching. I joined a reading group. I don't know what to think yet about the whole thing. I live with a graduate of an ivy league school. Yes, it is intense. I am also reading 'Becoming Visible' a exhibit book on how gays came out after the Stonewall Riots.

This past week I requested work off, and bought a plane ticket to Salt Lake. When I arrived my mom was at the gates already tearing up. It was amazing to see her. We went to breakfast and talked and then she took me to her place of work, where she introduced me to Hyke, this HUGE muscular tattooed man. After talking for a little he mentioned how cool it was it was to start the GSAs in Southern Utah. I swelled with pride for two reasons. First, being this very manly man telling me I did something awesome. Second, the fact that my mom talks about my homosexuality openly. I feel this is such and important part of the movement, and I just didn't know she was. It's amazing.

I was eventually carted of by Sala and Ariann. Can I just say it was so amazing to see them. Sala screamed when she saw me and I think I broke her ribs with my hug. We had fun in Cahoots, a gay novelty store and checked into the awesome room at the Hyatt. Kyle came up and it was amazing to see him. We all partied all night.

The next night was Equality Utah's Allies Dinner. Dressed up in our schnazzy attire we entered the Salt Palace. A huge area was dedicated to this are. We stood near full and watches as nearly 1500 people filed into the room. Only a handful of them knowing who we were. When the ballroom doors open, I gasped a little. As a tech nerd I was in love. A huge room filled with a couple hundred tables. Excellent lighting on a beautifully set up stage. At this point I realized, if I hadn't before, that this was a big deal. The dinner progressed with great talks and an award presented.

The hosts began talking about youth activist, we looked around at each other, my heart dropped to my stomach and I grabbed Sala's hand for support. The stage manager ran up to us. "Are you my high schoolers" She said with over enthusiasm "I need you to follow me!" Hands intertwined we walked toward the stage, the video of my friends talking about the feat playing on two ten by ten screens. "When you get up there I need you just to go crazy, dance your heads off, the crowd will love it" When the video was over we walked on stage. All to starstruck to move anything but our shaking legs. We all attempted to do a little jig but eventually abandoned that. We stood in front of the entire crowd, which was now standing and cheering for us, among them our loved ones, and Dustin Black. When the cheering finally stopped they presented us all with $1000 scholarships, much to our surprise. We exited the stage, were people still aplauded us, people came up to congratulate us and take pictures with us. Fifteen mins later we were at our table still being approached by people, Suddenly we were celebrities. At the end of the dinner Dustin Black made an amazing tear-jerking speach, When the lights came up, I stood up and I gave Sala hug. Whispering close to her ear, I said, "I think we need to move to Salt Lake" She smiled and nodded. People went out of thier way to continue to congratulate us. A lady of UEA offered to submit us for a scholarship, a man from U of U asked us to enroll in his school, senators shook our hands.

We walked to Dustin Black who gave us a hug and signed our calendars, we talked very little and he took a couple pictures with us. It took us nearly an hour to make it to Ariann's Truck. Needless to say we were on the most amazing natural high ever.

I don't know when exactly the idea had hit me, but I knew from the moment it had, I had already decided. I was moving back to Utah.

Seattle has been a great experience, I have learned a lot. My utah shell (which I didn't know existed) was cracked and I knew what the world was like outside. I became an independent adult. However Seattle is a very 21+ city, and there is something called "The Seattle Freeze", it's hard to make friends here. I would be working, and reading for the next six plus months. In Salt Lake I could be a part of something huge. People know my name and I could be going to college, which I am now ready for.

I talked about it with everyone, even though I had already decided. Come this December I will be moving to Salt Lake Utah, to attend school in the spring. I will have an apartment with Sala. It is exciting and scary, for many reasons. I don't want anyone to think I just gave up, because I didn't. This is just the best option now. I needed Seattle, now Utah and I need each other :)

Love
Logan

Viva la Vida

2010-08-17T19:26:00.006-06:00

I find it pathetic quite honestly, my new life in a new city, I left everything behind for this new life and what do I miss the most. Is it my friends? No not quite. My family? Not really. I miss both of these a lot but what I miss the most is quite simple, I miss the control. I have always admitted to being a control freak. When Twitch initially broke up with me, I was shatter yet I was mostly bothered by the way he controlled my feelings, something I have always easily controlled. When I want to be happy, I am happy. I think this is partially why I have ruined so many relationships in the past. If I ruin them I control what is happening. Even as a kid I remember have a certain form of control over my friends and my parents. Now this isn't going to turn into some terrible plot point in a TV show about a sociopathic liar and serial killer. This is just a simple fact of my personality I have always known.

So how is affecting me now? In St. George I had control, and it was growing. I was an organizer of Queer Volunteers, I was on Link, gay leader group of StG. I still had a hand in the School Newspapers, the GSA's. I had a job in which I controlled a good portion of what happened at the theater. I had friends, I controlled what I did with my life. I had control everywhere, and that was what was keeping me going.

Here in Seattle I don't have control. I am at the beck and call of those who lead me. Even my personal life is largely centered around the will of others. I don't know many people and the people that I do know are often busy. I can only go out on my own participating in a limited number of things by my self (bus permitting). So unfortunately the control freak in me compensates by using the one thing I can control, my emotions.

The other day I realized that I had been getting easily angry for the past couple day and I concluded that it was just a part of the game. I am letting the anger fill me because I can. I sit at home all day and do my own thing until I can use my anger to feel in control of a situation. It is terrible and it needs to stop. Luckily it hasn't become a major problem yet.

Things aren't so bad though up here. I just got a job which is great :) I am excited to start, and mostly to start meeting people and occupying some of my time, instead of watching endless episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Dexter (Note above reference), and Lost, and reading my two books and browsing facebook. Viva la Vida.

Hello Seattle

2010-08-04T11:05:00.007-06:00

As my car coasted down through the pass and broke the line of trees I honestly gasped, Seattle had revealed itself and it was beautiful. Mikayli and I looked and each other and both expressed our mounting excitement to finally be here. It had been a long and rather frustrating journey but we had made it.

Welcome to a new chapter in my life, with a new blog (tell me what you think!), and ever new adventures. You can find my previous blog now located at twigstheories.blogspot.com

I cried when I saw the sunrise over Saint George in my rear-view mirror. My entire life was packed in my old beat-up car Rhonda. It was scary and liberating as hell. I was free of everything.

My last days in day in St. George had been full of friends and heartwrenching goodbyes. How could I leave all these amazing people! My facebook status read:

Good night St. George, this is my last night as your resident. I depart early next morning. StG is like an amazing tresure chest you open it excited to find gold, only to find coal, but with a little determination and curiosity, you find the secret compartment full of the most magnificent pieces of gold. To my magnificent pieces of gold... I love you.

Why did I finally decide to leave? Many reasons, but honestly the biggest reason was I didn't want to be comfortable, stuck in StG not following my dreams, I wanted to be happy, and I was just flat tired and burnt out. I had plans, dreams for StG, I still do. If the people want it, they have the power to do it. I had hit a cap of growth, and I need a change. I made this move for me.

I spent a week in Salt Lake, saying good bye to my family, getting my hopes up that I had found 'someone' (even though he happened to live fourteen hours away from my new home), and spending time with my sister.

The drive was long but it was sped up by great conversations with Mikayli. We made wrong turns and stop traffic when Rhonda decided to have a fit. Two hours outside of Seattle Rhonda shutdown. We pulled off, unfortunately on the small shoulder of a bridge. We got towed to the nearest town where we checked into the Crab Apple Inn... Yes.... We probably contracted Herpes or some other STD from this shity motel, but our good humor got us through. Especially in a last attempt to make it to Seattle the next morning we RAN fourteen blocks to the nears auto parts store before it closed. Making it in the nick of time (I seriously almost passed out) We walked back to the hotel and I realized how scary this "Union Gap" place was... I was seriously a little afraid. I later found out we were in the most ghetto areas. I jimmy-rigged my car and we drove into Seattle the next morning.

The apartment I am living in is great! The roof has an amazing view of the city and the water and "The Mountain" which Laurie explained to me is something special to Seattlites. Laurie and I have a home-made bunk bed that is really more like a fort. The apartment is even complete with 'crazy ferret man' who chases his ferret in the back grass area. I first saw Laurie when we went to Pikes Place Market and she ran up and gave me a hug, It was nice to have something familiar in this very different city. My entire first day I kept saying, "Wow... I am actually here. I actually did it" and it still amazes me.

Seattle is such an amazing wonderful city, a little pretentious at times, but I can't help but be madly in love with it. My days have been spent cleaning, exploring different parts of the city by foot, and reading. I think I have a Job and a Cause and that is really all I need more to be completely content.

Seattle's has a great 21 and older Queer Community, yet it's Youth is seriously lacking, it is on the brink of budding and I can't wait to help. Keep checking for more updates on my new chapter in life here. I need you guys to survive! Thanks for Reading!

Love Twig